One Thing I Can't Stand

I can't stand when people think my life is perfect and just dandy just because of the simple fact that I have both parents in my home

Yes, I know I'm fortunate to have both of my parents

But that sure as heck doesn't make my life perfect

Seeking . . .

Why do I continue to seek you?

The more I get to know about you, the worse you sound

But yet... I'm addicted to you

It seems as if the more bad things people say about you, I just want to pursue you

Maybe I want to prove them wrong

Maybe I want to believe that you are everthing I want and more

Why do I seek you?

When all you cause is pain

You make me cry

Tears flowing from my eyes

The heartache never ends

And my obsession begins

I start to think about you every night

I dream of seeing you every minute

When you hold me, I long for your scent to linger on my clothing

Why do I seek you?

After all the great talks and sentimental moments

You leave me

You act like there never was anything there

You seem ashamed to even speak to me

But yet I still love you???

What is wrong with me?

Why do I continue to seek you??

Am I really this dillusional to believe that you still love me??

So now I have to pretend like I have moved on

But the truth is everytime

I look into your eyes I see the good times in our past

So I'll continue to seek you in my heart

Hoping that one day we can finish what we started