One Thing I Can't Stand

I can't stand when people think my life is perfect and just dandy just because of the simple fact that I have both parents in my home

Yes, I know I'm fortunate to have both of my parents

But that sure as heck doesn't make my life perfect

Seeking . . .

Why do I continue to seek you?

The more I get to know about you, the worse you sound

But yet... I'm addicted to you

It seems as if the more bad things people say about you, I just want to pursue you

Maybe I want to prove them wrong

Maybe I want to believe that you are everthing I want and more

Why do I seek you?

When all you cause is pain

You make me cry

Tears flowing from my eyes

The heartache never ends

And my obsession begins

I start to think about you every night

I dream of seeing you every minute

When you hold me, I long for your scent to linger on my clothing

Why do I seek you?

After all the great talks and sentimental moments

You leave me

You act like there never was anything there

You seem ashamed to even speak to me

But yet I still love you???

What is wrong with me?

Why do I continue to seek you??

Am I really this dillusional to believe that you still love me??

So now I have to pretend like I have moved on

But the truth is everytime

I look into your eyes I see the good times in our past

So I'll continue to seek you in my heart

Hoping that one day we can finish what we started

School

I HATE it!

Crying Out to You

I'm broken

I'm confused

I'm torn up

I'm abused

I'm tired

I'm sad

I'm hopeless

I'm mad...

I'm crying out

God I'm crying out

Can you not hear me??

Am I not loud enough???

I feel as if I can't continue life

If my days just get worse and worse

The ones I thought I could trust

Blow away just like dust

The little confidence I did have

Was taken away by those who I thought loved me

God I thought you said you would never put us to what you can't get us through

God I feel like I can't get through this

God I'm crying out

I need your help

Your love

Your guidance

Because right now I'm on a path that has no ending

A path where my best friends turn into enimies

A path where there is darkness with no sign of light

A path where I need you

God I'm crying out!

Please send your help

Don't Bring Drama To Technology

So social networks like myspace, facebook, twitter ... etc. are used so we can socialize with others right??

Wrong.

Obviously for some people it's used to find out what their man is doing, or message someone that they have a problem with, or post something that will really piss someone off, or to bash someone

Why are we taking technology and making it serve as something it was never intended to

Now someone has a problem because:

You tweeted before you texted me back..

You have me as number 3 on your top!?!

You have been commenting on ___'s pics and you know I like him

You didn't accept my friend request

You logged on yesterday and you didn't reply to my message

You responded back to ___'s tweet before you responded back to mine

or either

I'm going to post this tweet because this is really gonna piss ___ off

Im gonna move ____ up before ____ on my top and that'll show ____

I'm gonna hack into ____'s comments because I heard she was talking to ____

Seriously .. CHILL with this nonsense

Technology was not made for this

You have a problem with someone ... talk to them about it

Don't post something hoping they will see it and it will make them upset

If you can't confront someone with the problem you have with them, obviously you don't want the problem solved

Ugh...

Btw I have been blogging out of frustration a lot lately

But I always feel much better after I blog

You Ain't No Friend of Mine

From best friend to enemy

Was it that easy for you make that change??

Ha..i think it was

You knew all the dirt on me

All my insecurities

You knew what could make me laugh or cry

You knew me

Inside and out

You see this was all a part of your plot

You would get close to me

Make me feel like you were the best thing that could ever happen to me

Learn all my secrets..only to expose them

Make me feel lost and empty

Leave me in a place where I can't see any light

You made everyone turn their backs on me

Where i went wrong was turning my back on you

You stabbed me

&& I don't think this is a wound that will ever heal

Best friend to enemy...the easiest move you could make

SHE

So I'm in a book club and we are reading "Inside of Me" by Shellie R. Warren

this book is phenomenal! I love it soo much. She truly had many struggles and what's great about her story is that she learned from all her past experiences and wrote this book to teach others..I definitely look up to her in that way..I want to do the same thing as well..I want to use my past experiences to help others

She walked around with a smile from ear to ear

She was well known around here

She caught every guy's eye

She never seemed to be shy

She was loud and outgoing

She did bad things without anyone knowing

She could even sing

She..this girl had everything

But wait...have I been fooled?

She's not the same girl that she is in school

She goes home and cries every night

She lives her life in fright

She doesn't know anything about self worth

She was told she would never amount to anything ever since birth

From what others see, she has the perfect life

But really all she has is strife

I would look at her everyday and say "Why can't I be that way?"

She had the cutest clothes, great shoes..she lived in wealth

But none of that matters when you look in the mirror & hate yourself

She had everyone around her telling her that she was the best

But that was never installed in her so she didn't believe the rest

So..she'll probably continue to walk around like she's "all that"

Hmph..you can't judge a book by it's cover and that's a fact

The End..I wrote this poem because in life we often envy others who we think have the "perfect" life, but what we fail to realize is that no one has a perfect life. We all have struggles and insecurities..it's just that some of us may cover them up better than others.

BOO You! Go Away

Well I'm pretty much aggrivated right now

Tonight I am going to see Bruno with some of my friends

I was under the impression that only 2 of my friends were going

But now I get a text saying that 2 other ppl are coming

WTH!!?!?

One person I don't mind coming..

But the other....hmph!

She's fine when I hang out with her by myself

But when I'm with other friends...she gets clingy

Augh! I don't have time for this

I already have a frigg'in headache

& I don't feel like someone being all up in "my grill"

I feel that she tries too much to show that we are friends

I'm soooo OVER IT

If she annoys me tonight..phew!

I can't gurantee that I will keep my cool

I won't keep my cool

Did You Forget??

Wow..

Did you forget that I was the one by your side

Helping you through every one of your struggles??

Did you forget that I am the only one who has never spoken

negative to you??

Did you forget that you also have to care for me too?

Did you forget that I have a LIFE?

Did you forget that even I go through struggles?

Did you forget that maybe sometimes I'm not having

a great day

Did you forget that I have feelings??

O &did you forget that those feelings could get hurt??

Lately..i have felt forgotten

What do I mean by that??

I feel that people have literally forgotten about me

Why is that I am always the one dishing out advice..

But hardly get advice in my time of need??

Am I a push-over?

Do I let others take advantage of me?

Sigh...

Did you forget about me???

It sure feels like you did

& in the words of Kanye..

"You cut me deep..

You cut me like surgery"

It's fine you can forget me

Don't be surprised if I forget you too

It shouldn't have came to this

But it's not me.

It's you

PEACE.

Boom Boom Clap..Boom de clap de clap

Augh!

Ok so today was a very boring day for me
Eveyone in the house was gone working

I was left all by my lonesome

Got on the computer

But I can't stay on the computer that long before it starts to get BORING

I listened to music

Texted ppl

But for some reason ppl stopped texting

So...then I decided to do something I have been putting on the back burner

I learned the hoe down throwdown!

"Pop it, lock itPolka dot it.Countrify then Hip-hop it.Put your hawk in the sky

Move side to side. Jump to the leftStick it, glide

Zig-zag cross the floor. Shuffle in diagonal. When the drum hits.Hands on your hips

One footed. 180 twist. and then a,Zig-zag, step n' slideLean it left.clap three times

Shake it out. Head to toe. Throw it all together. That's how we roll!"

I love the dance!

Whenever I'm bored I know I can always count on dancing

Dancing is such a great thing to do!!

By learning the hoedown throwdown it just made want to dance more

So I got my zune

Went to my playist titled "The Shizz"[which is full of songs I often dance to]

&& I just danced for awhile

....btw I absolutely love the Slumdog Millionaire soundtrack

...not to mention how much I love the movie!

Jai Ho is my jamm!

&& I also love the dance to that song

..I have yet to learn that whole dance

But maybe I will

Another one of my jamms is Around the Bend by The Asteroid Galaxy Tour

They rock!!

LOve them!

...Boom Boom Clap..Boom de clap de clap! =)

ya know!?

Well..

I havent blogged in awhile

I havent been on the computer like talkin about lately

Most of my time on the computer has been dedicated 2

downloading tunes =)

I have never been so satisfied with my zune as musch as

i am now

I have every thing up here from Miley Cyrus to New Kidz on the Block

Im really loving some of the throwbacks right now

Seems like there aren't that many good songs coming out now

It seems like music is kinda reaching a hault in creativeness

I have also fount myself liking some music that i normally wouldn't like

I have been jamm'in to "Miss Me Kiss Me Lick Me" by Cold Flamez

Shoutout to my friend Terry who put me onto that song

Lyrics aren't too great but that's what the clean version is for =)

Yes Yes i know it's bad 2 feed ur flesh with certain songs

But i can't help but to jamm 2 some stuff

&& unlike some ppl i think i am strong enough in my relationship with God that I don't let

certain things influence me

Hmmm..

Music is truely a weakness 4 me

&& i can say that i am going 2 give up secular music

But that would be a complete && total LIE

Ha

Well.. i gotta get ready 4 practice

OneLove =)

New Beginnings

Boy! i haven't blogged in awhile
Which is because i have been moving
I haven't been doing much lately
I haven't even been out of the house in the past
2 wks for anything but school

**Side note:
Speaking of school..
School was soo chill this past week
Mainly bcuz we have been doing SOLs && AP exams
SOLs r soo easy
&& it doesn't take much to pass them
I think they r such a waste of time
AP English exam was def not as hard as i thought
it was going to be
55 multiple choice && 3 essays
The essays were the easiest part

Back to the subject:
Well..im really trying to get used to this new house
It's smaller then the old house
But my parents want a smaller house
Because after next year there will be no more
of their children left in the house
I love my room!!
Rob looks soo good on the wall mmhmm
My mother says he looks demonic
I told her it's because he played a vampire
I think that look in his eyes is quite intriguing
My dad is letting me paint my dresser
It's going to be purple w/peace signs =)
Purple is gonna be my color for this room
Can't wait to get my covers && pillows && things!
I frigg'in LOVE my closet!!
It's sooooo bigg && spaceous! =)
My poor dog Pearl does not like this whole situation though
She has been crying every day
She doesn't even sleep in her house
She sleeps under the steps in the front of the house
SMH
Poor thing
She will get used to it
So...
For the most part i can see myself getting used to this house
It's a NEW BEGINNIG!

Summer '09 Im Counting On You

So.. i thought last year was the worst year ever..

but this year has been HELL forreal

I'm soo ready for the summer

I know the summer will be great

Hopefully i will have the job that i am desiring

&& hopefully i will go to the beach a gazillion times

Since i dont have a certain person taking up my time now

I will be spending my summer with the besties

Dont' you just love the summer!?

The only thing I don't like about the summer

is pollen, grass, things that sting you && insects

Those aspects of the summer kinda SUCK..hard

But everthing else is soo cool

Bcuz my yr has been bad once again

Im counting on the summer to bring some happiness to my LIFE

Well... Well... Well

So...
it seems like i haven't blogged in such a long time...
there has been nothing that important for me to blog about...
i guess i could talk about my weekend
my family is in the process of moving
&& it is sooo tiring
having to load all of your crap and then walking up and down steps to drop it off
augh! && not to mention how hot it has been lately
i seriously thought i was going to pass out
the heat aint no joke
i def. dont want 2 go 2 hell





Side Note:
...speaking of hell
on Sunday my pastor said it was hotter than 2 hells outside
mwuahahaha
after church i asked my parents about saying it's hot as h e double hockey sticks
i asked them if they thought it was ok...
i said it was bcuz you are actually talking about the place...
they disagreed
so it's hot as hell are words that you will never here coming out of my mouth..
but anyway, that's my little side note





Back to my weekend..
well i stayed home Friday && did not attend school bcuz i was
wayyyyy too tired from moving
but the purpose of me staying home was totally defeated when my mother told me
that we were going to do more moving
AUGH! i was soo pissed

but we got done with the moving && my mother told us that for our hard work..
we were going out to eat
we went to wok & roll && their food was very hot!
it was early in the day so not many ppl were there
but i totally couldn't eat like i wanted to
i just didnt have the appetite




Now Saturday:
Jan invited me to go to the movies with some others to see obsessed
omg i totally enjoyed the movie i didnt think i would like it so much
im not gonna go into detail just in case someone who hasnt seen the movie is reading this
after the movie me && syd went down to petland
&& played with this adorable dog..we named him twowiee
[pronounced two-we]
then we went to get food...
i got this delicious stuffed pretzel
MMMM

Sunday!:
Sunday was great
Church was great!
After church my mother& i went to get some Cold Stone Creamery
the same guy serves me everytime!
he is soo polite && cute!
i got the pie who loved me
&& it was delish!
After Cold Stone i went home & had some pizza
then i got a text from a cool peep asking if i wanted to go 2 the mall..
i jumped on that!
Mall was fun!


Well..that sums up my weekend!

=)

Sticky Stickler

Right now i am sitting in my engineering class
&& As you can see from the picture that appears beside the words im typing there is a sneaky snake going around putting sticky notes on our fellow classmates backs

You cannot see what the little messages are on these notes but the notes read things like:
I'll see you in detention
Sneaky Sneak
&& I Lick Myself
The first two victims of this stickyness[shown above you] have fount their notes


&& One became a part of this sticky mess and placed it on another classmate's back
Will this stickyness continue??
Here's a picture of the next two victims

















&&The next victim...























However,the sticky noter still remains anonymous
Who is this sticky sticker???
Ladies & Gents I introduce you to Gamal[pronounced Jamal]

He's the spoon && I'm the dish of icecream

Latrice it's like he's the spoon and i'm the bowl of icecream," julika says
hmmm...we are on the phone&& i totally don't know what to say about the whole situation
I really don't
&& i feel that she is at the point where it doesn't matter what anyone says..she is still gonna be angry
&& i know how it feels to be at that point

idk how many times i have said this
[over the past couple of years]
But....
GUYS R FRIGG'IN JERKS!
I just want one guy to prove that they are not all the same

&& when you screw one of my friends over
it's a done deal buddy

"why did he text me!!?," she asks
i really don't know the answer to this

"i'm about to make fire in my feet!," she says
this girl is scaring me
she is really pissed && i dont know how to calm her down

wat to do?!
wat to do??!?

this is the first time i am really out of words of advice
i'm out of words period.
idk wat 2 say 2 her

how can i help my friend??
augh im confused!

.....
confused child
"i'm not mad anymore....i'm just upset," she says




.....
HUH!!!????

Please Don't Forget

I love love love Demi Lovato's song Don't Forget
I have been listening to it a lot lately
&& I cry everytime I hear it



Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
(Did you regret)
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
(Did you forget)
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us



Sniff Sniff**
Don't the words just touch you????

Hmmm....[Smile]

Life has truly been GREAT lately
This spring break is truly the best that i have had so far
You can ask anyone who knows me well enough has life been good for me lately && they will tell you no
I am really glad that I am learning who my real friends are
&& I am letting go of the unnecessary ones
My mind totally got off track when I met this guy
He pulled me away from my friends my family && most importantly GOD
I wanted to spend all my time with him
&& didn't care about anybody else
Well...the guy turned out to be GAY
Ha! shows you how much a guy can get a girl caught up
If there is anything I have learned in the past years is that boys at my age are a WAIST OF TIME && you should always put God FIRST
I spent a lot of nights crying
&& then i realized what i needed to do was to spend a lot of nights PRAYING
I really have reconnected myself with God
&& also my friends
&& that guy...
I still love him with the love of God
But im going on with my LIFE whether it's with him or not
Hmph!
Smh...the guys i like
But needless to say
I AM SO MUCH BETTER
I never thought I would make it through
But from the lyrics of my fav. artist[Tye Tribbett]
"He's so faithful!
He keeps making a way out of no way
Just when I thought that I couldn't take no more
I MADE IT THROUGH"
Well...
There it is
I guess I should stop blogging now
Gotta go do some chores
=D

Tough Love[This 1 Is Dedicated To J.Bridges]

I'm hurt
very hurt
to see how one of my closest friends attitude on LIFE is changing into something that is totally negative
The enemy is really good with his game
every time someone speaks negative.. he is grinning saying his work is done
SURE life is truly hard sometimes
but that doesn't mean you give up
don't look at all the negatives
&& you complain && say that bad people are always rewarded
psh! it seems that way now but that will change
& it might not change soon..actually i know it won't change soon
nobody who does wrong will go unpunished...
TRUST ME
& i know you may feel like your good deeds are going unnoticed but that's not true
my dearry
patience is a virtue
&& good things really do come to those who wait
everyone knows you gotta have rain in order to get a rainbow
don't give the enemy the satisfaction of you being upset
STOP THROWING YOURSELF A PITY PARTY![&& im not being mean im just giving you tough love because iknow exactly how your feeling]
you really think things are gonna get better for you if you act bitter?
psh! naw...that ain't the way you do it
this is probably another test
you go through things in LIFE to make you STRONGER
&& for you to give up
that's like you saying i don't trust God
i don't trust God enough to know he will make things better
i don't trust God enough to know he will work every situation out
maybe that's the problem...
of coarse it's good to pray but you also have to have faith that your prayers will be answered && that your circumstances will get better
if your reading this...please speak to me
i need to hear at least one word from you
hear me out on this
i would not write all of this if i didn't love & care for you

Choices

Sometimes i often wonder what the future holds for me
For a long time i knew everything that i wanted
&& i knew for sure that i was going to be what my family wanted me to be...a lawyer or judge
But now i think about it..& its not even what i want to be
I want to be a dancer & famous designer
Dance & Fashion are my passion
I love the two with all my heart
But neither professional dancing nor designing are a realiable source of wealth and prosperity
So do i go with something in the criminal justice field?? which will probably be something i will not enjoy but i will have a stable income doing
Or do i go with fashion and dancing, which are not reliable
Why are the most important choices so hard?
DUH because they are so important
I just don't want to be a failure
I don't want to have to struggle to maintain a great and prosperous life
I know i am destined to be and do something great..i just don't know what that is right now
God speak to me!
Tell me which way to go
Lead me in a path that will be pleasing to you and enjoyable for me
CHOICES!!!

people: Do you have a nickname?
me: yea..it's peaces
people: Why is your nickname peaces?

People often ask where the nickname peaces came from. Well basically I am all for peace. World peace...peace on earth...all that good ole peace stuff

I wear a beaded bracelet that says peace.
I plan on making a peace society

The sad thing I have come to realize is that I can never have peace. Whether its at school, home, or even my church.
Peace does not seem to exist in this world
But peace will always exist with me

Forever Happiness

I take a vow
A vow to remain happy
I have been through so much in my life lately
But I will not let the petty things in life define me
I will no longer let sadness takeover
Take over my joy
My pride
My feelings
And most importantly my happiness
Happiness is no longer impossible
It used to seem so out of reach
But now it is at the tip of my fingers
I am happy
I have happiness
And it will forever be with me
This is my vow to FOREVER HAPPINESS

ME

What can a person say when asked to define themselves? Many things come to mind about myself. I will start by stating my name is Latrice. My name was given to me by my mother. It is because of my parents that I am here today, and I believe they made me who I am today. They taught me everything about life when I knew nothing about it. I can say what my favorite color is, what I spend the most time doing, or where I like going. I guess I will say that I can describe myself by talking about two things: my personality and what I enjoy doing.
I am a pretty easy going person I am very easy to get along with. I am willing to make a sacrifice to avoid confrontation. In an argument I will agree with the opposing just to stop the argument. I am shy and quiet, but not around the people I trust and care about. When I walk into a room full of people I do not know I will go to a corner and read, rather than introducing myself to the others. Put me in a room filled with family and friends, and I will be the loudest person in the room. I try to make the best out of every situation because I appreciate the important things in life, and try not complain over the insignificant things. Why fuss about what I do not have in my closet rather than appreciating that I have clothes on my back? I often think of others before myself because I love to serve others and make them happy. I am most definitely a “people person.” I find the most joy when I am around others. I am the girl who has sleepovers but never wants my friends to leave. I value friends, preferably the true ones. I believe that true friends are truly hard to find. I like to go the extra mile for the people that I care about regardless of what they might do for me. Some have even referred to me as the “pushover,” but that is where I draw the line. Although I love doing for others, I will not allow myself to constantly do for someone who does not care to even say thank you. I feel that if I spend my whole life thinking about what somebody is going to do for me, much of my time will be wasted. I am a stern believer in getting things done yourself and not waiting around for someone else to do your work for you. After all these positives, I think I should mention my biggest flaw- my low self-esteem and lack of confidence. I am quiet because of my lack of confidence. I have had very low self -confidence since the age of ten. That insecurity comes from my weight. My weight often makes me feel uncomfortable and I often compare myself to other girls. While others tell me that I am beautiful, I feel otherwise. I feel that people tell me that I am beautiful because they love and care about me, and want me to feel better about myself.
I am very committed to the things I am passionate about. Those things are dance, music, family, church, and God. Dance is my passion and number one form of expression. When I dance I do not feel like the same person. I feel much more confident when dancing. I spend most of my free time dancing. I can not dance without music though. Music is my soul. In many cases, it is my source of happiness. Music keeps me motivated. My family is my heart. They are there for me no matter what and know me the best. I am the true definition of a church girl. I have been going to church ever since I was a child. Most of my time is spent at church or doing activities with my church. Being that I am very much involved in church, religion is very important to me. It is a huge part of what I am. Because of my religion I choose not to do certain things and partake in certain activities.
This what life, my surroundings, my religion and the people that are in my life have made me. When I look in the mirror these are all the things I see. So if ever asked who Latrice Bynum is, all these facts and characteristics will be my answer. Without these characteristics I would not be myself. They define me.

When asked to describe myself...a lot of things come to mind but the first word that comes to mind is IMPERFECT. there are soo many things that i dont like about myself & i know its not good to constantly beat yourself down & compare yourself to others but i find myself doing that a lot. INSECURE LONELY ODD LOSER FAT all these words come to mind when im defining myself but also i realize that i do have some positive things about me. i have been through a lot & im a very strong girl. ive been through fake friends, hurtful people, and so many negative comments. im learning more and more about myself & maybe i need to think about how i define myself